The fortune teller said finance is at a low this year. I won't be seeing my money though I work damn hard. I hope it is just this year and things won't be so bad next year. Many villians around in the sheepskin of friends. Sadly, this just manifested itself. Thus I'm slogging my life off to pay a debt this great friend of mine owed under my name. Paranoia sadly is a necessity in this part of the universe. Now my life seems forever changed, but i want to believe I'm not stuck in vain.

What's the thing most people are interested in? Mainly what you are doing. And they ask the same thing almost everytime they see you (perhaps just a few days apart). Anyway, my brain is worn out from lack of sleep so hence the shot up nerves. I ain't doing anything spectacular with my life if you really wanna know. Keeping myself alive by tutoring kids and making money from torturing them. I really love it. I tutor a bunch of brats in this childcare centre in the unearthly early part of the day. One boy is forever failing all his subjects but he is the most entertaining person around. He can't go to class like the rest so he is isolated. I explained to him that rain falls where there are trees and seldom in desert where there is no tree. He suddenly woke up from his boredom and asked me (like god had just breathed life in Adam) if that was because the gods knew there were trees to water so they sent down rain. That must be the most sensible explanation I ever heard. I seldom see him these days cos his mum took leave to coach him for his exams. He told me that a few days ago, laughingly pointing to the tree outside and said his mum would be taking 'leaf' to coach him.

Was singing to my real bad out of sync strumming of Noel Gallagher's Talk Tonight, and guess wat..... Me started crying. Since there's really no one to talk to, I'll talk to the kilobytes here. My arse is sweating all over my seat it looks as if i just peed. The heat is unbearable........I wonder if all the planets are gravitating towards the Sun, towards another big bang. People give out heat. Makes me uncomfortable. Can't take it.

"here am i, going nowhere on the train
here am i, growing older in the rain"

hop on to a train to Malaysia soon.......
I have tonnes of things to say before I type but now I have nothing to type. Truth is I feel terrified.