watched 28 days later directed by Danny Boyle (Trainspotting) today. it is the most disturbing movie on the apocalyptic theme I've seen thus far. The entire London city is void of traffic (how the hell they get all the cars to get out of the way), strewn with papers, the seemingly sole survival of this plague (Cilian Murphy) runs around clueless looking for a human. All this to the alienating sounds of Godspeed you Black Emperor. I nearly puke in the cinema. the fear is too great. violence is all in the mind. Cilian Murphy is the kinda lanky Irish dude that gets me all mesmerized and his voice is narcotic......he feakingly looks like Ian Curtis, sounds like him, lanky like him.......

Work takes a toll on the insanity. I'm feeling it. I try not to look ten floors down into the dark side of the mind. keep waiting for that something to break.

When the routine bites hard
and ambitions are low
And the resentment rides high
but emotions won't grow
And we're changing our ways,
taking different roads
Then love, love will tear us apart again
--Joy Division

For toycamera enthusiasts check ToyCamera out

If you are interested in Butoh (a Japanese dance/physical theatre fusion), do check out the interview I did with a local struggling performer, updated in my other blog for Butoh

Details for Application of the Working Holidaymaker (UK) visa

Tmrw is my 3rd attempt for Subject 2. The last $20 i have in my BBDC account. just hope i dont drop the bike.

http://www.livein-jobs.co.uk/

sifted this out of the chunks of bogus work and travel sites. donno how probable this is either.

Besides BD, i don't think the rest of the folks have seen my website. Anyway this Link to Icons and Signages of USA is in it. Check this out if you haven't Roadside Icons
Updates of whYNYC-LOG

Since I'm still dreaming and saving money to this nowhere plans, I'll just throw your comments into a log.

This is the link. I'll flash this on my new post if any updates.
whYNYC-LOG

Like I mentioned earlier, I wanna travel and then die young. There has never been any other reason to live since i was 16. Escape? maybe.
>>>Redsky- same here. i wanna do a month long trip. tat's a huge ambition for a poorly travelled suakoo like me. But no risk, no gain. I have 3 itinerary from highest to lowest possibility == Third World india tour to Bombay, Calcutta, Delhi == cross country USA == Beijing via transiberia railway across the harsh winterland of Russia then across Europe via the eurorail
>>>>>pbs- tuition can make money. but there will always be ppl telling u theres no CPF, no future, waste of your degree blah blah. and it's a no life job.
>>>>>>BD- those horrible tales I heard, NY is not a place to live in for the pampered S'porean. You can't stop to think abt direction, once u do that, you get picked on by robbers. no money, no talk.

To all folks who read this blog:
(headcount of 3 at the moment)

My initial reason to go Washington-NY is sheer horniness. Then the hormanal charge died down and the bleak decay of NY described in Catcher in the Rye took over horniness. I probably caught the NY bug from Biddite & Co. So what is your reason for visiting/staying in the BigApple? I would like to use your opinions for a little write-up (it's my geographical studies hazard to do things remotely related to it) as a way to gather more motivations to go NY. Anyway, I'm thinking longterm of a crosscountry roadtrip from NY to LA now.
Actually, it could be Rotterdam or anywhere, Liverpool or Rome. But NY seemed the 'in' thing. If you don't mind sharing your passion for travel, and have some time to spare, do drop an email to this add: princesswt5@yahoo.com.sg
If you already have a writeup somewhere in your website or blog, you can direct me to it by emailing it to me.
Or if you know anyone who's planning a trip already/dreaming of it like moi, do add him/her into your contribution. Thanks!

Me relatives accuse me of not finding 'decent' work with CPF, allowing my mother to work so hard and not giving her a good life. I do have a plan really hence I bought insurance policy some years ago. If I pay premium till age 35 and then kill myself, my parents will be in their late 60s, the payout will be enough to see them through another decade. Never really see any future. Hahah even my ah beng cousin is going to China to pursue a donnowat cert in guzheng (that chinese music instrument). My grandma thinks he'll make big bucks when he comes back. I hope she gets her facts rite. Maybe I should go back to piano and continue with my grade 7 then 'make big bucks' teaching piano. Hahahahha.

Today's gig was quite good. It was a breath of life compared to that Void Deck crap. And not to forget the company of redsky, erh slob and biddy/or soft thighs watever they call her. Thanks guys. I was hiding in Sungei Buloh nature reserve earlier on cos I was so sick of everything, drawing stupid maps and was chased out of the crappy and overpriced 'cafe' cos they closed at 6pm. Thanks to those uncles who gave me a lift in and out of that not so accesible place though i wont exactly die from walking that mile. THese folks are the hope of humanity. I remembered in Sydney (i stayed over at Biddy's apartment for hols), we walked for 15km to and fro the beach cos no one was willing to give us a ride. Then again, we are a bunch of chinks so we are 'dangerous'.

I'll think i'll not go anywhere; i'll stay home and wait for the monsoon to come.

I don't wanna grow up as well. There's this fanatic of Catcher in the Rye who went round New York documenting the places Holden went to. I found the website cos i wanted to find the path Holden took in Central Park which inspired him to ask this nitwit question "Where did the ducks go in winter?"
The book was written in 1950s so she actually ransacked history to find out the existing buildings in place of the old ones. A lot of ppl live in their youth because this is the only period of their life where they still dream. "The more you live, the less you feel"
New York is a pilgrimmage for me; a mecca for the literature that affected my growing phase. Now that my mind is kinda degenerating, I wish to visit mecca to find new life. Not to mention the breeding ground for Yo La Tengo's dreampop charm--Hoboken, NJ. Harlem would be to relive Jack Kerouac's hobo days, where bebop and jazz became the source of his stream-of-consciousness, crazed-out writing style. All I know about New York is from books. Nearly forgot this city's influence on Edward Hopper's haunting paintings of the lonely urbanscape in the 20s and 30s admist the depression and World Wars. Luckily the museums in Washington DC have a permanent collection of some of his paintings and they are free. The ones in NY holds those that I really wanna see, guess wat, it's USD12.
I live in my head, I am looking for things that no longer exists. Why the hell do i wanna go Ny for?
Nostalgia. for a place I've never been too.

No matter how hard you work, no one appreciates, they demand for more.