My very first time performing naked (expect for that loincloth in between my legs)......totally exhilarating. Got to see tonnes of boobs in the female dressing room, and well, some girls are bigger than others. We are supposed to feel like a newborn baby but i really doubt we amateurs from the Butoh workshop has yet to see past the social construct of nakedness. But i really love that Kabuki white cream we put all over our body. It's damn gothic!
I was talking to this participant who worked with Zai Kuning before about my nerves (actually it's more of my monologue) and how appearing naked is like being naked emotionally and how this is semiotic of exposing one's true self in this world blah blah blah. It's really harder to be emotionally naked then throwing off the clothes esp for ppl with almost no emotions and can't be bothered to find them. I do feel as if i'm in my own nest finally without anything on, almost a relief.