i realise tat taking a dump makes me feel good emotionally. but it must be a smooth dump.

Oh man. I've been bitching so much when booze would solve the issue. We should all be high and happy. Life's too short to be pissed.

I need a break from this pretense. I haven't been myself for these past 2 months cos I've been selling my soul for some cash. I think it's ok to do that if you know what you are selling your soul for. That's what I thought initially but you know you can't trick the Devil. I thought.......I'll just be a yes-man and get through these observation period so I'll go on to NIE then be posted to some crap place to teach and be some lowlife there. Everything is brown (ie shit) everywhere. Now my soul is gone, I don't know what to do. It's so comfortable sinking into oblivion and I actually feel.......glad. No intellectual and sexual intercourse. Is this it?????????

I first heard Skip James on the soundtrack of Ghost World which brought me to watch Wim Wenders' "The Soul of a Man". It feels damn American Gothic with those black and white manipulations. These directors are so good at creating legends of someone they know next to nothing about.

So the question is: Where will you go if you were the last human on earth?

Hear comes the fear again, the end is near. I see the killer in the faces around me; they've all been killed before. Though i've yet to watch Dawn of the Dead, I think BD is right. The zombies are reflection of modern human's spiritual plight. They are coming to kill us till no soul exists.