As I lay on my bed coughing my lungs out, I started contemplating the cosmic emptiness. Jai Guru Derva Om. I have no more desire for what life has to offer. But isolated nothingness is not enlightenment; merely insanity. How? How do i find that thread of path in between insanity and pure laziness? I have no desire for mundane love nor hate. They make no sense..........I merely sink further into oblivion. A stone. Be a stone.