my period is almost over. YAY! so what.
why am i still doing odd jobs huh? considering tutoring is not a career, it kills my brain cells, all dull work does, i try to bring in fun but i know it's not getting me anywhere, i wanna go to UK on working holiday visa, i know it's yet another coverup for not wanting any aims. i won't go for the puppet workshop which costs $200 for 4 sessions, not tat the costs put me off, i know i've lost that excitement, hence it'll be a waste of time even if its free. all these times i scrimped, ground my teeth as i tutored lessons after lessons, trying to make up the $6k for the visa application. i wonder if i have any more motivation and guts left to go UK after getting enough cash. i love the numbing temp officework for a change. can i really be a hobo traveller?

been working 10am-10pm for the past week or so. starting to feel sick literally. i give things to my students and today they tell me their mum told them not to take things from me. maybe its PMS, I actually felt like a loser. I know its the indebtedness bullshit, maybe its my lousy hairstyle.

Hallow's eve. The time has come to harvest; to begin a new year. Welcome back the dead. Anyone game to dress up for Halloween?

oh yah, for those who hasn't seen the latest black & white photos I took, pleazzzzzzz check it out @Black|whiteCity, heh.

I felt ten years younger after getting a new hairstyle. The shaggy cut allows me to do more styling. It's the style with the 2nd most number disapproving comments among the rest I had. Need someone to take a photo of it. It somehow has this 'what the heck' attitude oozing from it cos everyone was speechless yet moi is totally can't-be-bothered.

I have a new hair colour and it still reeks of ammonia. I hope the colour fades fast cos it sucks. I wanted to try BlueBlack but that doesn't suit my complexion so the stylist put a dark matt blonde; turned out dark golden blonde. I'll go swimming tmrw and see if i can get a greenish tone to produce the straw blonde shade. I forgot I was supposed to go for an interview today and got the hair cut instead. I'll figure some other exciting things to do tmrw.

And I think Friendster is just a whorehouse. Goddamit. Wat's with the rule which I can't put photos of non-human? It's sickening to see those made over photos all around, proclaiming they are babes.

DPT doesn't arouse any emotions in me. I like the fact that most of the film is done at street level and not in studios. Of cos the gore isn't the selling point in this movie (just some human organs here and there). I find it lousy cos it's forgettable. The gore in 28 days later adds to the suspense only for the first half then the rest is hollywood crap. Are the censors sleeping or wat? This is RA material and now its only NC16. Then they go about cutting tiny sex scenes in chunks. Worse still, some shows can't even make it here. I watched Twilight Samurai. Suppose to be some tearjerking & macho show but i find it cute and hopeful. The rural backdrop was superb, the setting was twlight most of time with the intense orange flooding the fields. Beautiful. Here you see the bereaved samurai chopping woods, tending the kids, caring for his senile mother. Something we never see on samurai shows that display only the cool murderous facade. I love the costumes! Those robes and kimonos.

Donno if it's sunstroke or PMS, feel suicidally tired. Watched "Dirty Pretty Things" and nearly puked again. Gawd! Every movie has gore in it these days. Can't i just watch a decent art show that doesnt have to stoop to fluid to stimulate enjoyment. This show merely plays on star power (emily tatou from "Amelie") cos I think she sucked in this show. Can't blame her though cos the plot is shallow. No difference in her acting as a jaded immigrant and her eccentric girly role in Amelie. In fact she looks like Michael Jackson in his deformed state, double puke! Nothing but thrillers these days (arghh, MJ again). In short, this show is about immigrants selling their kidneys and sucking cock to stay alive in London. Makes me think twice about applying for that working holiday visa to UK. Gulp.